9 meses!!

Hola mi querida familia,

I literally can´t even explain to you what a wonderful week it has been.  My companion is incredible!!!  The mercy and love of the Lord is incredible. ... can´t say that I know why the past 6 months were... like they were but if nothing else it helped to appreciate evey little thing that I have right now.  Hna. Velasco is so humble and sweet with incredible desires to work and be happy while doing so.  Ha, she is probably going to kill me except in a good way.  We walk super fast ever where we go but talk to the people we come in contact with... exept like, really talk with them.  Gosh, I feel like I´m in Texas again.  We do everything we can to follow Preach My Gospel and more importantly the Spirit.  It´s not this... I can´t even explain it, empty, structured, my-way-or-attitude. This past week I have really been thinking about the differences... what I could have done differently or what I am doing differently now... Who knows, maybe I would have been a grumpy terd with my first companion no matter who it was because I was so bitter about the language and the differences between here and Texas but I have faith that the Lord knows me and my needs.  I have become a better, stronger person as a result of my 6 months of suffering.  ...I didn´t suffer. ...it just wasn´t... fun.  Literally I don´t even know how to explain it but I feel... free now.  I seriously feel like I developed a complex with my previous companion... I spoke in lessons because I didn´t want her to get mad or annoyed and when I did speak I was terrified that I wouldn´t say what she wanted me to. Gosh, it´s so frustrating just thinking about it.

Last night, my companion and I stayed up till like 2 talking.  She trained last trasfer and I assumed that everything was great because it was her hijita etc, etc. but she totally unloaded about how... mean. this sister was to her.  Calling her a hypocrite and prideful and gosh, just down right mean.  Nevertheless, they were together for 3 transfers because the president told them that the only way that they would work things out would be to stay together.  It wasn´t nearly that bad for me but I understood more or less what she went through.  After last night, I dont feel so... afraid to mess up anymore.  I´m human.  I´m not the best teacher, not the best at contacting, not the best.. well, at a lot of things.  But I know that the Lord can make my weaknesses strengths.  I know that earnest and sincere prayers are how we are going to have success here and be able to touch the hearts of the people here.  My attitude has changed.  I talk more, laugh more, smile more.  ... but smile because life is awesome not just because I like smiling. 

This transfer is going to be incredible.  There are people here in Esperanza that the Lord has prepared to receive our message of peace and hope.  I know that it is true with everything that I am.  

I love you all and hope that you are happy and healthy.

Con cariño,

Hna. Morgan

picture -- my 9 meses con mi compañera!!! haha

Jeremias 29:13 -- Me buscaréis y me hallaréis cuando me buscáis con todo su corazón